I am person that tends to feel guilty about an endless number of things. As a new momma, those things seem to have multiplied. No-I don’t use cloth diapers as much as I wanted to, no-I haven’t made all of my little man’s first foods, no-I haven’t captured every moment of his life in a cool artsy black and white picture.
Then there is the holiday guilt. My husband and I have always committed to not giving in to the commercial machine of Christmas. We buy local or hand-make most of our gifts. Or give something consumable or experiential. That didn’t really happen this year. I even broke my vow of not going to the mall-ick!
As I start to spin these things around and around in my head, a still small voice spoke out to me. That voice said, “It doesn’t matter.” It doesn’t matter? As I began to think about it, I started to understand what He meant. No one is keeping track, there is no list. I need to slow down and enjoy the things that are present in my life. This time is so precious and my life is so different now than it was a year ago and THAT IS OK!!! So, the gift that I am giving myself is letting myself off the hook. If you see me beginning to spin spin spin-please remind me of the still small voice.
Merry Christmas!
I really love this. I feel like life (particularly as a mother) is a constant process of re prioritization. Even things that are important get a back seat to the things that are of ultimate importance. I hope you have wisdom and grace (for yourself) as you wade through that process time after time. It sounds like God is showing you what is most on his heart. Love your christmas card. It is amazing!
Thanks Melissa! The card was all Liz Kjeldsen’s handy work!