I am person that tends to feel guilty about an endless number of things. As a new momma, those things seem to have multiplied. No-I don’t use cloth diapers as much as I wanted to, no-I haven’t made all of my little man’s first foods, no-I haven’t captured every moment of his life in a cool artsy black and white picture.
Then there is the holiday guilt. My husband and I have always committed to not giving in to the commercial machine of Christmas. We buy local or hand-make most of our gifts. Or give something consumable or experiential. That didn’t really happen this year. I even broke my vow of not going to the mall-ick!
As I start to spin these things around and around in my head, a still small voice spoke out to me. That voice said, “It doesn’t matter.” It doesn’t matter? As I began to think about it, I started to understand what He meant. No one is keeping track, there is no list. I need to slow down and enjoy the things that are present in my life. This time is so precious and my life is so different now than it was a year ago and THAT IS OK!!! So, the gift that I am giving myself is letting myself off the hook. If you see me beginning to spin spin spin-please remind me of the still small voice.
Merry Christmas!
